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See that photo down there… That’s me at 22. Yes, it’s official, I’m not longer at that great age of 21 and I’m making my way up to that dreaded 30. However, this may surprise some people but, it’s alright really. I’m embracing it. 21 was a really great age for me and I’m in no doubt that 22, will be the same if not better. Because you’ve got to really haven’t you, embrace it, as let’s face it, there’s nothing you can do about it.
Also in that picture is my dream place, St. Ives. I just love it. I don’t know why, I just feel great when I go there, all my troubles just seem so far away (they are… 4 1/2 hours away at least) and I can just relax… When I come back from there, apart from being horrendously upset, I’m calm, relaxed and ready to just take anything that is thrown at me. I started this blog a good few months ago now, to explain that this was my journey to a girl’s perfect world. Well I’ve found it, in many places other than home, which is strange really as people say there’s no place like home. That’s true though, as my actual home I love and I wouldn’t change it for the world. In fact if I could transport it to St. Ives, I’d be one happy girl.
However, that dream, for the moment, is unrealistic as jobs, money and time are all out of reach. I also have to step back and think, if I lived there, would it be as special? I think it would and I’d love to live by the sea but, unfortunately, it’s not just all about me (as I’d like it). I have other people to think about and other people to involve and at the moment, I don’t want to leave my job because it’s great, I don’t want to leave my mum and dad and live four hours away and finally I want my boyfriend to come with me (obviously) and we’re not at a stage where we can move that far away.
This takes me to a time and place where I used to be, when I’d relate a song to my blog. This post has taken me down the road to London, to the The Beatles and their song Yesterday and well, it relates like this:
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away. Now it looks as though they’re here to stay. Oh, I believe in yesterday.
As I’ll always believe in yesterday and the things that make my life what it is, good or bad.
It’s official! I’ve started Christmas shopping… yes it’s true, last week I came to the realisation that it’s less than 3 weeks till Christmas and I should probably start buying presents as I have to have time to buy, wrap and give; but I suppose that’s everybody’s aim really. After two days of pushing and shoving in shops, I realised that this year would be different… this year I would do all of my Christmas shopping on-line … and that, Ladies and Gents, is exactly what I’ve done. I was reluctant at first as I sat in amazement at how quickly I managed to do things.. one present here, one present there and before I knew it, I’d spend £200… but it’s easy to do really isn’t it and ultimately it’s like what Helen Flanagan said on “I’m a celebrity” … You’ve just got to kiss the magic card and hope that the funds will never run out.
They will eventually of course, the funds will eventually run out, but for that one second when your clicking away on that “proceed to checkout” box, you can feel like the princess you are inside and the millionaire you wish you were. It’s funny isn’t it, we all want to be millionaires, celebrities and people with loads of money but I get the feeling that if I had all the money in the world, I wouldn’t know how to spend it, who to spend it on and whether to save it or not. University changed me… before I went I knew how to spend. I could go out and spend hundreds on myself and not feel guilty, not even one bit. But now I can’t, I feel bad going out for a coffee or buying the newest Cosmopolitan… so what happened? Was it the constant lack of money and fear of no money at all or is it now that I’m earning a proper wage, I want to save all that I can?
Whatever happened I’ve changed and now, unless it’s a special occasion I never “kiss the magic card and hope!” I’m just sensible with money I suppose, I don’t splash out when frankly there’s no need and I guess I just don’t take money for granted. So I suppose there’s a lesson to be learnt from Uni, one that will live with me for a long time…
Don’t spend your money on the things you want, because tomorrow you won’t have it for the things you need.