In preparation for the festive season (and slightly because I have just become an owner of several cooking apples) I have been doing some baking recently and testing my ability at making pies. My first attempt did not go so … Continue reading
2013 has already been too busy and unfortunately I haven’t had time to sit down a write a Blog post. However, now on a Friday night, the first quiet Friday night, I find myself sitting and writing because after all, that’s what I love to do. I’ve always enjoyed writing, I’ve never been great at it but that doesn’t matter because whatever I write falls off my fingers (such as rolls of the tongue, but nowadays it’s all keyboard isn’t it Darling?) and onto the keyboard and suddenly I have a paragraph. I don’t think it happens with everyone but I’ve never noticed really as when you are able to do something, you think it’s normal, don’t you? Take singing for example, if you could sing (which I can’t) until someone tells you you’re brilliant, you’d never think you were any different. But that my friends is what I call life as something is never something until someone says it is.
I mean, a table was never a table until someone said “Can you put that glass on the table for me?” “The what?” “The table of course, that piece of wood over there” … It’s funny isn’t it really. I mean for all we know, there could be another world out there where up is down and happy is sad and where new things are still happening, like this world really, but, opposite. This week my pals and I have been discussing how amazing things are and how quickly things can make a change and grow. Ten years ago my job, Social Media Assistant, would never have existed and my job profile would probably have been laughable. Now, it’s one of the most sought after jobs in the industry and something some people would love to do everyday. That was me last year, when I started this blog. I started this blog because I loved to write, wanted to vent and have somewhere where whatever you said, it was interesting. Six months later, I’m still blogging but now I have a job I love, a job I probably never would of had if I hadn’t of put myself out there.
Over Christmas I posted about “All those happy faces” and as predicted there they were, Christmas Day, smiles all round. It was amazing, incredible and made me feel good again. I’d been feeling low leading to Christmas, I needed a break. My first three months at work were hard, a lot to take in and completely different to what I was used to at University. But it’s been great, as I was saying to someone today, the only way is up and I’m so excited for that to happen. The best thing I’ve done the last three months is learnt to take criticism and not to take it personally and my gosh has it helped me progress. As I finished work for Christmas, a weight was lifted off my shoulders and after three months I could relax, turn off my emails and not worry about that inevitable 7am wake up call. It was great, two weeks of getting up at 10am and slowly making my way into normal clothes by 3pm, what a life. It was good, but I couldn’t do it forever, I need the change, I need the challenge and I need something to work towards in my life.
I now turn to the people in the picture, those that make my days incredible and my nights even better. This year we spent New Year’s in St. Ives, Cornwall, for the first time since I was 16. I was worried as I was so excited and I thought that back in my younger days I may have remembered it differently. Well, let me tell you, I did. I remembered it completely differently as it was better than I remembered. Waking up at 10am, getting dressed and just walking, anywhere and everywhere and then stopping for a Cornish Rattler to freshen up and walk some more. It was amazing, that amazing my boyfriend and I are going back down on the 1st February for my 22nd (O NO!) birthday, less than a month since we were last there. In that picture up there we’re dressed as penguins as on New Year’s normal clothes is a no no. Walking down the street listening to “Smile and Wave boys, smile and wave” and “OMG look its Penguins!” was incredible, we felt like superstars! The night was amazing, the days after were amazing and I hope to have the same experience when hopefully, we go back next year (as chickens maybe?).
I now refer to the title of this post. It’s from the popular Christmas song “Winter Wonderland” but I feel now more than ever it is relevant. I know it can be seen as bad luck to think and talk and sing about Christmas but I realised I’ve had a Christmas Card up in my bedroom for 2 years now and I think I’m doing pretty well out of it. On 31st December 2012 at 11:59:50 I was counting down to the last time I will ever see 2012, and all I could think about was WOW, what a year. I looked up as the clock struck Midnight and there it went, 2012 was gone, 2013 was here. Was I disappointed? No. I was happy and incredibly excited! What a beautiful sight.
I don’t know if I’ll ever beat 2012, but who cares, I’m going to try and do it every year until the day I die because as I said before, something is never something until someone says it is.
So it’s Christmas tomorrow… Where did that come from? Somehow this year it’s snuck up on me. I have all my presents bought and wrapped but its just got here, suddenly with no warning.
No warning I hear you say, it’s plastered everywhere I hear you say, but when your at work its hard to find the Christmas spirit and hard to see the decorations or hear the songs. Today was different, today I finally finished my Christmas shopping after a long two weeks of thinking shall I, shan’t I! Well I can tell you I bought everything, spent a lot and it will all be worth it to see those happy faces!
The presents are all sitting under the tree at this moment, ready to be put into their respective piles and ready to be ripped open in the morning.
I can’t wait, I can’t contain my excitement. I have that weird feeling in my stomach that almost feels like worry, but I know it’s not, it’s excitement, can’t waited-ness and warmth.
I’m so mushy, I love the look on people’s faces when they open their presents and how grateful they are for the thought that has gone into them. That my friends is why I’m not only excited for tomorrow but for the 27th which is when my boyfriend gets back from his parents and we have Christmas Day take 2.
I’ll let you know how it goes but I am sure that there are going to be many happy faces tomorrow and on the 27th and that’s why I, truly do, wish it could be Christmas everyday!
Merry Christmas Everyone!
It’s official! I’ve started Christmas shopping… yes it’s true, last week I came to the realisation that it’s less than 3 weeks till Christmas and I should probably start buying presents as I have to have time to buy, wrap and give; but I suppose that’s everybody’s aim really. After two days of pushing and shoving in shops, I realised that this year would be different… this year I would do all of my Christmas shopping on-line … and that, Ladies and Gents, is exactly what I’ve done. I was reluctant at first as I sat in amazement at how quickly I managed to do things.. one present here, one present there and before I knew it, I’d spend £200… but it’s easy to do really isn’t it and ultimately it’s like what Helen Flanagan said on “I’m a celebrity” … You’ve just got to kiss the magic card and hope that the funds will never run out.
They will eventually of course, the funds will eventually run out, but for that one second when your clicking away on that “proceed to checkout” box, you can feel like the princess you are inside and the millionaire you wish you were. It’s funny isn’t it, we all want to be millionaires, celebrities and people with loads of money but I get the feeling that if I had all the money in the world, I wouldn’t know how to spend it, who to spend it on and whether to save it or not. University changed me… before I went I knew how to spend. I could go out and spend hundreds on myself and not feel guilty, not even one bit. But now I can’t, I feel bad going out for a coffee or buying the newest Cosmopolitan… so what happened? Was it the constant lack of money and fear of no money at all or is it now that I’m earning a proper wage, I want to save all that I can?
Whatever happened I’ve changed and now, unless it’s a special occasion I never “kiss the magic card and hope!” I’m just sensible with money I suppose, I don’t splash out when frankly there’s no need and I guess I just don’t take money for granted. So I suppose there’s a lesson to be learnt from Uni, one that will live with me for a long time…
Don’t spend your money on the things you want, because tomorrow you won’t have it for the things you need.